Sunday, January 13, 2008

We All Get What We Ask For (Sooner Or Later)

It really is true, you all. Sooner or later, we all do get what were asking for. And for me, that time is now, and I am so glad that I took the time to do what it takes to make myself happy. I am loving life for the most part right now. *Smiles*. So, here is an update on my life for ya.

Well, peeps, I am all moved into my apartment here at USI and I LOVE IT. You know, it feels so surreal, honestly. I never thought in a millions years that I was capable of making so many life decisons in such a short time that would result in me being the happiest I have EVER been. And, truth is, I honestly mean that. Ya know? Its just like a fairytail... yet certain things in my life remind me that.... YES.... this is reality. Haha.

As far as my classes, I have already got my schedule made out for this semester and I pretty much think that I am going to love the SHIT out of it. Haha. Seriously, the classes that I am taking truly interest me... and its awesome. Here is my schedule. Tell me what you think?

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* Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays *
10am - 10:50am - Social Construction of Drugs (Soc. 370. - 003)1pm - 1:50pm - Sociology of Deviant Behavior (Soc. 426)2pm - 2:50pm - Sociology of Gender and Society (Soc. 431)

* Tuesdays, and Thursdays *
10:30am - 11:45am - Intro. To American Political Science (Pols. 102)3pm - 4:15pm - U.S. History Since 1865 (Hist. 102)
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So, as you all can see, in reguards to my sociology classes, I am gonna friggen ADORE going to class. Haha. I love those topics in sociology classes, which is part of the reason that I am a soc. major. Ya know? Those classes are gonna be pretty much amazing, and I have even hears good things about a few of my professors from other students here, and they said it was a good choice. *Smiles*. It makes me really happy and ready for school. The only class this semester that I may not like is the history class, but.... oh well. It's a core class, so I have to take it. Lol. I CAN'T WAIT TIL TOMORROW TO SEE WHAT MY CLASSES ARE LIKE. YEY! Lol...

Another pretty much amazing thing in my life right now, is the fact that I started a new job. Haha. I think I am going to love it as well. I am working at the Circle K w/ my best friend, Erin, and so far.... I like what I am seen. They are willing to work with my schedule and make sure that I am getting time off for classes and school and such. I am so happy about that. I love it. Come visit me there sometime, you all. Lol. Ok?

When it comes to my friendships, I couldn't be happier either. I am finally getting to talk to and hang out with friends because, guess what... I AM RIGHT HERE IN EVANSVILLE WITH THEM. Haha. Sure, I miss BSU, but.... not much right now. I miss the PEOPLE... not the place. And, I will make the adjustment.

Right now... I just love my friends. Especially my Chica, Erin.... and my wifey Andrea... whom I ADORE with all my heart. They are amazing people, you all and I am SO LUCKY to have friends like them. *Mwah*. Love you girls!

Ok, so... now to the "not so good" news. Robbie can't take leave as soon as he thought he was going to be able to, due to some classes and such that he has to be on base for. I will admit, im a little bummed about it, but... its all good. I am still MORE THAN happy with him. Plus, I will get to see him in the summer, more than likely. Its not so bad. I mean, sure, the newness of the relationship has wore off at this point, but... my feelings for him have never been stronger. I still couldn't be happier... and, I am falling for him pretty quick, to be honest. He is just... amazingly understanding and just... incredible.

I LOVE YOU ROBBIE!!!!

Other than that, there really isn't a whole lot going on in my life right now. Im just... too damn happy with my decision lately for words to explain and it makes me smile. I can't wait for the semester and.... this is seriously going to be the best semester EVER. Haha.

Oh yea, and... if your a guy and your jealous of Robbie, please.... keep that shit to yourself. Trust me, its not like you have a chance with me, anyhow. Honestly. I am so sick of people talkin shit about my relationship, and... im not putting up with it. I refuse to let it alter my mood in any way whatsoever. Haha. *Smiles*. So, suck it up... and get the fuck over it. You got something to say? Well, then... say it to yourself in the mirror or something, cause im not listening to it. I AM WITH ROBBIE, and not you... for a reason. Assoles. Your lucky this hasn't pissed me off yet and Robbie pretty much hasn't wanted me to say anything.

Anyway, I love you all... and I have to get going, because I am going shopping with my momma. Haha.

I will write more laterz...

Peace, Love, And Chicken Grease,
Heidi Marie

Saturday, January 05, 2008

I'm Feeling Right Where I Belong With YOU

So... If you all haven't listened to my new profile song... "First Time" by Lifehouse then, please... do yourself a favor... go do it now. Lol. The song is amazing, but more than that, it truly is how I feel right now. *Smiles*. Seriously, the band is incredible and I think everyone will love the song.

Seriously, you all, im not kidding you when I say that I have never been happier than I am right now. I MEAN IT. For several reasons. One being Robbie and the fact that he is the best boyfriend EVER (Haha) and I am amazed that he actually cares about me just as much as I care about him... and puts up with my crap. *Sigh*.

I was thinking today, and... I can be such a mean ass to people, and I hate that about myself. So, I starting thinking to myself today, what if I lose Robbie because of that? What if im not a good enough gf and he deserves BETTER. Ya know? A while ago, I would have been ok with that, but now... I can't be.

I don't ever want to lost Robbie. He means to much to me. Honestly.

I mean, I know that we arent in love, but... I just... want to be with him as long as he will allow me to, I suppose. I love him, I really do. So, lets just hope that I don't scare him off and ruin a damn good thing like I have before in my past. *Sigh*. Im scared of that... yet... it feels so amazing. Its like falling in love all over again and... it just... feels... RIGHT.

Robbie: I hope that I haven't been too mean and bitchy lately. Im sorry. Im a spoiled brat. I know. But, truth is... I don't want to lose you. I love you and... I hope that I make you as happy as you make me, baby. We are amazing together and... I couldn't ask for more. I know its still a new relaionship and I can be a pain in the ass at times... but this just... Feels right. I can't wait to see you... and like I said... I LOVE YOU!

So... aside from my relationship feeling "right where I belong", I have some more great news, you all. guess what? Are you ready for it? Lol...

NO MORE Ball State For Heidi! As of this coming semester, I am transferring to USI and will be back in Evansville.

Haha, thats right peoples. IM BACK! So... im pretty excited. I just needed to make the decision to come home for ME. Noone else. It is what will make me happy. *Smiles*. I go Saturday to get my stuff out of my dorm at BSU and move it all back home. I will be living on campus at USI this coming semester. It's pretty much going to be amazing. Haha. And that means... I expect to hang out with my friends more. Ya know? I miss you peoples! And... I love you all.

Welp, thats about all that is going on in my life right now, you all. Im just... incredibly happy and... I love my life right now. I couldn't be happier and I feel like I am right where I belong.

Love you all... and miss you guys... until next time..

Peace Out,Heidi Marie <33

P.S. Living life for yourself and noone else ROCKS My SOX! Haha.... life is amazing! Im finally doing things for MYSELF for a change....

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

And This Is Why I LOVE My Friends (And School)

So, you all, I have been thinking lately, and I have some friggen Amazing friends. Honestly. I do. I love you all. And, not to single anyone out, but I think, at this time, Kate deserves special recognition.

First off, Kate is just an amazing roomate. I have never had a roomie that actually spends times with me without getting on my LAST nerve. I mean, sure, we have our arguments, but... all friends do. Friends are there to tell you what you NEED to hear, even when you don't want to hear it. And, we do that. But, I still love Kate and we get along great. I ADORE rooming with her.

Secondly, she puts up with my brother and Hannah's bad mouthing of her, and has learned to cope with it. Hell, even I couldn't do that. I mean, After all they have said and done to her, I would have gone NUTS, but she even manage to help my brother out when he needed it, even though she didn't have to. That was awesome, and it takes a BIG person to do that. It HAS to be hard.

She also FINALLY got things out in the open with Donald and told him exactly what I had been trying to get him to understand. Im am SOOO happy about that. I don't like hurting people, and I definately didn't want to hurt Donald, but... ya know what? It had to be said and I am proud of her. Thanks so much Kate! I love you... and I owe you, hunni.

So, basically, Kate is just amazing (as are the rest of you), and I thought you all should know that. She does a lot for me and is there for me when I need her to be. She is an amazing friend and those people who aren't her friend beacuse you fucked that up for yourselves, well.... im sorry for you! Kate is awesome and is a very good, honest, and loving person. She is almost as good of a person as I am (lol... im TOTALLY J/K). I love Kate.... and you all should too!

And that goes for all my friends as well.... I really miss you all and I am going to write a blog soon about my actual thoughts on this subject. There is more to be said about this, but for those of you who are there, I admire and appreciate you and I LOVE YOU! *Mwah*.

Also, life has been just AMAZING lately. OMG! I have all of my school work under control still and I am doing great in just about all aspects. I just... wish I didn't have to worry about my family as much as I do. *Sigh*.

Bascally, I just love life you all... and I am having the time of my life. Hell, just last Saturday I was in the Homecoming Parade... and had a BLAST. OMG! It was awesome. We even won the game! Lol. Horray for the FIRST EVER Park Hall Float which I helped Build and... Rode on for the first time. *Smiles*. Im tellin ya... it was DEF. worth the lack of sleep... and the hard work! I love my school.... and the people here!

I even got my tickets for Florida on the 26th! Im WAY excited... I pretty much have the most amazing BF EVER. I promise. Lol. (even though... Kate would say that her's is the better, Hahaha).

Im just... HAPPY you all... thats about it.

Welp, I love you all... and until next time...

<3 Heidi Marie

Friday, October 12, 2007

It's Times Like This That Just Make Me SMILE

Wow, ok, so... I obviously have a lot to get off of my chest right now. For those of you who haven't been keeping up with recent events, my brother's "Fiance", or whatever you want to call her, has, once again, started crap with me and my family. Its quite annoying. However, Im not going to sit here and tell you guys ALL ABOUT IT. Im not like that. But, just know, they are driving me NUTS!

Also, last night, although it was my original night off, I had to work Night Staff with a good friend of mine, Candace. It was SO MUCH FUN! I love that girl. We talked for about 3 hours straight about life, love, friendship, and... girls at or school who have been recently arrested for violence.
First off, if you don't know, these five little bitches jumped this girl here on campus at an off campus party. They beat the crap out of her and landed her in the hospital. How retarded is that?

Trust me... I know the feelig of wanting to result to violence... but... what does it solve? Really? Im not the "fighting" type, I guess.

So, anyway, that situation, and homecoming, have been the two major things going on around campus. I swear, people like those girls, piss me off.

Also, when I explained to my friend Candace and the personal stuff going on in my life, she assured me that I did the write thing in taking a stand. She was like, "She is lucky you were as nice as you were", and "I would have said a lot more if someone said those things about anyone in my family, much less my MOM". So, that made me smile and also made me think.

I am proud that I have awesome friends, like Candace, in my life. It makes me feel like there is hope for this world, after all. Sometimes... I just... tend to lose faith in certain people... and it makes me feel bad about the future of this country... and much less... out planet. But, people like the wonderful friends that I have, such as Candace, are amazing... and make me feel better.

We WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD, you all... I assure you!

Anyway, all of this talk with Candace got me thinking about my life, and myself as a person. Look, you all, I realize that I may not come off as the nicest person ever, but... trust me.... I am often mis-judged. I can be the nicest person you will EVER meet or the biggest bitch/cunt in this world, depending on how YOU treat me. Ask anyone that truly "knows" me. I don't take shit from people, and I stand up for whom and what I believe in and love. Pardon me, if I don't see that as a character flaw. If you all think im "immature" just becuase of that, well... fuck you people. Who in the hell are YOU to judge. I can give MANY expamples off of the top of my head of people who are FAR WORSE than I am. So, get real people.

I love life... and I hate when people make me lose faith in it.... and trust me...

Don't rain on my parade
Cause, I will thrown a TSUNAMI on yours....

Im done dealing with people's bullshit. And for those of you who think your have the right to judge me, well.... like I said before....

Sweetie, as much as you like to this it is
You aproval ISN'T needed....

Get over it, you all. I have a right to say the things I say and I have a right to do what I want in this world.

And over all, I am a good person, and people love me. And those who don't, well... its usually because they don't like the opinion I have formed of them and try to justify it by talking shit about Me. Well, forget it.

So, bottom line, I am going to start being more optimistic about life and I want to make a REAL effort to maintain my friendships. I love my friends, ALL of you, and I miss being close to some of you.

But, anyway, I love you all. I am heading to dinner now... I will write more later.

Loves you... and until next time...

<3 Heidi

P.S. 14 days til FLORIDA w/ LCpl Chapman! Lol.

Friday, October 05, 2007

Back To Life (Back To Reality)

So... I decided to write a random blog about how things are going in my life right now, for those of you who don't get to read my preferred list blogs.

First off, as far as school is going, I am having a fantastic year. I am doing really well in my classes and have high grades in ALL of them. It feels good to being doing well for once, and I don't even feel stressed out by school, really. I mean, sure... there is a little stressed to get readings and such done, but thats about it. I haven't been precrastinating things this semester, for spending hours upon end online. Lol. I love it. I especially ADORE my Jewish Scriptures class. Tehe.

Also, my job is still pretty much amazing, as well. I love it. I am picking up a lot of hours here lately because of homecoming (causing me to work 3 weekends in a row... *Sigh*). It sucks, but at the same time... it's more money. *Smiles*. Gotta love that...

Speaking of money, *ugh*. I have been waiting for MONTHS to get this stupid loan that I am applying for to come through, and I think I finally got somewhere with it. Lol. They are supposed to give me a decision on Monday! YEY! Lol. It's just frustrating, I suppose. Anyway, once it comes thought, I will be SO HAPPY! Lol. We are talking MAJOR financial relief. YEY!

As far as my friendships go, with it being the school year, I am starting to feel distant from my friends, yet again. *Sigh*. O well, its normal for me during the school year, I guess. I just... miss everyone. I miss seeing my A-Bear, Wifey (A-way), Pookie, and just... everyone!

Cory and I are doing well again. Lol. He finally was able to talk to me about me coming down there and such... im excited. *Smiles*. I can't wait. I miss him so much (as I am sure most of you know by now). Lol. Also, my mom finally told me that she will accept it, if I do marry him, in which, I truly do want to. I love Cory... and I don't see that changing anytime soon.

Just hearing his voice is enough to keep me smiling for DAYS!

Other than that, there isn't really a whole lot of stuff going on in my life. I have just been pretty with work, and school, and hall council. BTW, if I didn't tell you all, I made Hall Council Exec. Board again this year. I am the treasurer this year... YEY! Lol. I like it A LOT better. *Smiles*. I love living in Park Hall....

Kate and I decorated our door today for Halloween, lol, it was fun. I am not much into the holiday, but Kate is, and I love a decorated Door, so... we did it. I love it. *Smiles*.

BTW, Kate let me try on her wedding dress (she is using it as a FORMAL for Rainbow Girls), and we had WAY TOO much fun. Lol. I LOVE YOU KATE! Your an awesome roomie... *Mwah*
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Welp, thats about all that I have been up to, you all. I just wanted to update you all, and let you know how things were going.

O yea, and if you haven't seen "Good Luck Chuck", GO SEE IT! Kate and I have seen it 3 times now, and I love it. Lol. It's TOO DAMN FUNNY! Dane Cook is simply amazing... Hahaha... gotta love him.

Well, I love you all... and until next time....

<3 Heidi Marie

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Last Blog Of The Summer

Welp, you all. Im not going to be writing any more blogs until I am moved in and at BSU. *Smiles*. Im pretty excited. I leave on Tuesday morning. Less than 48 hours! WOOT! Lol.

Anyway, I plan on leaving at like 6:30am Evansville time, so... thats 7:30am Muncie time. So, I only have really one more night in Evansville that I can hang out. TONIGHT! Then, I am gone. So... hit me up if you want to see me tonight. Because, I miss you all and would love to see yous!

I already got to see my entire extended family just yesterday. YEY! *Smiles*. I went to my grandma's house in KY for a birthday party for my cousin Austin and my niece Kailey. It was fun and I got to go swimming with them all. I miss my cousins when I don't get to see them. We are all pretty close. I love them. *Smiles*. It was a good day. And once I got home, I passed out and slept for about 6 hours! Hahaha.... I love life! Im actually really happy for once in my life.

Also, on the way to my grandma's we had a flat tired. AHhHhhh... it sucked. The tire actually blew out. It was kinda scary, but we took care of it. We had a spare tire... THANK GOD! HA!
So, thats pretty much what I have been up to lately.

I also am trying to get my old bank account with Integra Bank closed and it is now at a zero balance (because the bank credited my account for the overdraft fees that I DIDN'T OWE... but that stupid AOL made my account go into overdraft with. GAH! I hate AOL) but the retarded bank wont do it until they call some credit agency to confirm that the reason the account was cresited off was because of AOL, and that I don't owe it. It piessed me off. . I ahte stupid people. Lol. And... I hate bullshit in life. Haha.

But, other than getting that taken care of, all I am going to be doing is packing here for these last few days. Thats it. So... hit me up if you wanna hang out.

I love you all... and I will write more once I am in Muncie and settled.

Miss you guys... <3
Heidi Marie

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Im Begging You To Be My Escape

So... I saw this posted in someone's blog, and thought it was cool. I used to have "Random Things About Me" posted on my myspace, but I don't anymore. So, I thought I would do this for a change. *Smiles*. Here ya go:

* 29 Random Things People Should Know About You *

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1. I totally hate stuck up people who are all about themselves. PERIOD.
2. My nieces, Kailey and Kaycie, are my world. Deal with it. Lol.
3. I Don't Like George W. Bush... Deal With That Too
4. Im a smartass most of the time, NOT a bitch. Get it right. Lol.
5. I wont say "I Love You" if I don't mean it.
6. My brother and sister are the greatest. Honestly. I love them BUNCHES!
7. Im a creative writer, and love to write, but... don't do it often. *Sigh*.
8. Im scared of dying too young. I want to live life to the fullest.
9. I hate clowns and they scare the CRAP out of me. Ahhhhh...
10. I spent my summer talking to all of American at TSD. Lol.
11. Im scared of Med School, yet I know I am going to ADORE it.
12. I hate biology and LOVE Chemistry... I know... Im weird! Lol.
13. I have the most amazing friends EVER... honestly. They rock my Sox!
14. I love Jesus Christ... if you can't accept that... I can't accept You. Sorry!
15. Im stronger than yesterday... and now... its NOTHING but MY WAY!
16. Love is the most amazing thing that I have EVER experienced.
17. I can't stand HS Drama... and BS... so... take it somewhere else. Please.
18. I love my dog's and I am very much a Dog person. *Smiles*.
19. I know exactly what I want in life, if that makes me a bitch... OKAY!
20. I can guarantee you wont find nobody else like me.
21. I Love McDonalds And Captain D's Sweet Tea! Its Amazing...
22. If you want to impress me, prove to me that you LISTEN to what I say.
23. Hershey Kisses and M&Ms = The Way To My Heart. Lol.
24. I love to hug, kiss, make out, ect. Just call me a Cuddle Whore! Hahaha...
25. I Adore Chinese Food.... especially from Yen Ching. YUM!
26. Sometimes I smile and laugh for seemingly no reason at all... Tehe.
27. I don't want you to want me... unless, of couse... I want YOU.
28. I love life... and life isn't THAT hard. I hate when people complain about it.

29. It bothers me that people at BSU and up north have never had Ski to drink before... OMG... Ski and Movie party in my Dorm ASAP! Hit me up! Lol.

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So... basically... I just wasted about 25 minutes of my life. Haha. O well. Thats basically me in a nutshell. Hope you enjoy! Comments!

Love you all...

and I am serious about the Ski party... if you are in Muncie and have never had Ski and/or Grippos.... HIT ME UP! Im determined... your lack of Ski is a DEF. problem. Its too amazing...

<3 Heidi Marie

A Year Full Of Chemistry (The Schedule)

Welp, I just thought I would post my class schedule on here for you all, since I usually do. Lol. And please, pay close attention to it cause last year I had a lot of 2am and 3am phone calls whenever I would have class at 10am. Lol. Thats why I give you all the schedule, just so you know when I am available. But, of course, I will still answer my phone any time you so choose to call me. Lol. *Smiles*. I just... love you all like that. Haha. Here is goes:

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Monday :
9am-9:50am - Creative Writing (Eng 285) - RB113
10am-10:50am - Jewish Scripture (Relst 251) - BB103
1pm-1:50pm - Organic Chem 1 (Chem 234) - CP453

Tuesday :
8am-9:15am - Chem Analysis (Chem 225) - CP255
9:30am-1:45pm - Chem Analysis Lab (Chem 225L) - CP306
3:30pm-4:45pm - Social Problems (Soc 242) - AJ175

Wednesday :
9am-9:50am - Creative Writing (Eng 285) - RB113
10am-10:50am - Jewish Scripture (Relst 251) - BB103
1pm-1:50pm - Organic Chem 1 (Chem 234) - CP453

Thursday :
3:30pm-4:45pm - Social Problems (Soc 242) - AJ175

Friday :
9am-9:50am - Creative Writing (Eng 285) - RB113
10am-10:50am - Jewish Scripture (Relst 251) - BB103
1pm-1:50pm - Organic Chem 1 (Chem 234) - CP453

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Yeppers, thats my schedule, you all. Lol. I know... I know... I am taking Organic for the second time, but... you know what? I am Gonna Do It Right This Time Around. Haha. I think this will be the best school year that I have had, yet. *Smiles*. Wish we luck you all. I am gonna post my work schedule as soon as I get it. I think I get it the Sunday after I move back to BSU.

Love you all... and miss you guys.

<3 Heidi Marie

Saying Goodbye To Summer

Welp, you all. Its that time again. *Sigh*. Time for me to start anew with a new school year at Ball State and say goodbye to Summer 07. For some reason, im a little sad about that, this year. I dunno why. I not too upset to be going back... but Im not too happy about it either. I guess... im "indifferent".

This summer has been such a learning experience for me, and I adored it. I finally love my life... and love my job, and now... its "back in the habit" and back to the "college" life at BSU. *Smiles*.
I am going to miss my friends back home this year more than ever. I have grown so close to many people this summer and I am really sad to have to move away, once again. *Sigh*. I love you all.

Anyway, wish we luck this school year, you all. I think I am going to need it.

I love Ball State... and I am more than ready to head back because lord knows... I am going nuts at my mom's house. But, its different this year. I finally started to appreciate being here in my home town... with the ones I love.

I will miss my nieces the MOST. I plan to come home a lot this year and see everyone. I wont always be letting my mom know though, so... Shhhh... lets keep it quiet. I have a car this year and I plan to use it. Haha.

Anyway, Goodbye Summer 07!

If you all want to hang out before I go back, let me know ASAP because I am working until like 2 days before I leave, so... hit me up and we can hang out. Ok? I plan on trying to have a get together this weekend if I can. We shall see. Call me, folks. I love you peoples.

Its Back To The Books... I go back on Aug. 14th! Just... 7 days!

<3 Heidi Marie