And This Is Why I LOVE My Friends (And School)

So, you all, I have been thinking lately, and I have some friggen Amazing friends. Honestly. I do. I love you all. And, not to single anyone out, but I think, at this time, Kate deserves special recognition.

First off, Kate is just an amazing roomate. I have never had a roomie that actually spends times with me without getting on my LAST nerve. I mean, sure, we have our arguments, but... all friends do. Friends are there to tell you what you NEED to hear, even when you don't want to hear it. And, we do that. But, I still love Kate and we get along great. I ADORE rooming with her.

Secondly, she puts up with my brother and Hannah's bad mouthing of her, and has learned to cope with it. Hell, even I couldn't do that. I mean, After all they have said and done to her, I would have gone NUTS, but she even manage to help my brother out when he needed it, even though she didn't have to. That was awesome, and it takes a BIG person to do that. It HAS to be hard.

She also FINALLY got things out in the open with Donald and told him exactly what I had been trying to get him to understand. Im am SOOO happy about that. I don't like hurting people, and I definately didn't want to hurt Donald, but... ya know what? It had to be said and I am proud of her. Thanks so much Kate! I love you... and I owe you, hunni.

So, basically, Kate is just amazing (as are the rest of you), and I thought you all should know that. She does a lot for me and is there for me when I need her to be. She is an amazing friend and those people who aren't her friend beacuse you fucked that up for yourselves, well.... im sorry for you! Kate is awesome and is a very good, honest, and loving person. She is almost as good of a person as I am (lol... im TOTALLY J/K). I love Kate.... and you all should too!

And that goes for all my friends as well.... I really miss you all and I am going to write a blog soon about my actual thoughts on this subject. There is more to be said about this, but for those of you who are there, I admire and appreciate you and I LOVE YOU! *Mwah*.

Also, life has been just AMAZING lately. OMG! I have all of my school work under control still and I am doing great in just about all aspects. I just... wish I didn't have to worry about my family as much as I do. *Sigh*.

Bascally, I just love life you all... and I am having the time of my life. Hell, just last Saturday I was in the Homecoming Parade... and had a BLAST. OMG! It was awesome. We even won the game! Lol. Horray for the FIRST EVER Park Hall Float which I helped Build and... Rode on for the first time. *Smiles*. Im tellin ya... it was DEF. worth the lack of sleep... and the hard work! I love my school.... and the people here!

I even got my tickets for Florida on the 26th! Im WAY excited... I pretty much have the most amazing BF EVER. I promise. Lol. (even though... Kate would say that her's is the better, Hahaha).

Im just... HAPPY you all... thats about it.

Welp, I love you all... and until next time...

<3 Heidi Marie

It's Times Like This That Just Make Me SMILE

Wow, ok, so... I obviously have a lot to get off of my chest right now. For those of you who haven't been keeping up with recent events, my brother's "Fiance", or whatever you want to call her, has, once again, started crap with me and my family. Its quite annoying. However, Im not going to sit here and tell you guys ALL ABOUT IT. Im not like that. But, just know, they are driving me NUTS!

Also, last night, although it was my original night off, I had to work Night Staff with a good friend of mine, Candace. It was SO MUCH FUN! I love that girl. We talked for about 3 hours straight about life, love, friendship, and... girls at or school who have been recently arrested for violence.
First off, if you don't know, these five little bitches jumped this girl here on campus at an off campus party. They beat the crap out of her and landed her in the hospital. How retarded is that?

Trust me... I know the feelig of wanting to result to violence... but... what does it solve? Really? Im not the "fighting" type, I guess.

So, anyway, that situation, and homecoming, have been the two major things going on around campus. I swear, people like those girls, piss me off.

Also, when I explained to my friend Candace and the personal stuff going on in my life, she assured me that I did the write thing in taking a stand. She was like, "She is lucky you were as nice as you were", and "I would have said a lot more if someone said those things about anyone in my family, much less my MOM". So, that made me smile and also made me think.

I am proud that I have awesome friends, like Candace, in my life. It makes me feel like there is hope for this world, after all. Sometimes... I just... tend to lose faith in certain people... and it makes me feel bad about the future of this country... and much less... out planet. But, people like the wonderful friends that I have, such as Candace, are amazing... and make me feel better.

We WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD, you all... I assure you!

Anyway, all of this talk with Candace got me thinking about my life, and myself as a person. Look, you all, I realize that I may not come off as the nicest person ever, but... trust me.... I am often mis-judged. I can be the nicest person you will EVER meet or the biggest bitch/cunt in this world, depending on how YOU treat me. Ask anyone that truly "knows" me. I don't take shit from people, and I stand up for whom and what I believe in and love. Pardon me, if I don't see that as a character flaw. If you all think im "immature" just becuase of that, well... fuck you people. Who in the hell are YOU to judge. I can give MANY expamples off of the top of my head of people who are FAR WORSE than I am. So, get real people.

I love life... and I hate when people make me lose faith in it.... and trust me...

Don't rain on my parade
Cause, I will thrown a TSUNAMI on yours....

Im done dealing with people's bullshit. And for those of you who think your have the right to judge me, well.... like I said before....

Sweetie, as much as you like to this it is
You aproval ISN'T needed....

Get over it, you all. I have a right to say the things I say and I have a right to do what I want in this world.

And over all, I am a good person, and people love me. And those who don't, well... its usually because they don't like the opinion I have formed of them and try to justify it by talking shit about Me. Well, forget it.

So, bottom line, I am going to start being more optimistic about life and I want to make a REAL effort to maintain my friendships. I love my friends, ALL of you, and I miss being close to some of you.

But, anyway, I love you all. I am heading to dinner now... I will write more later.

Loves you... and until next time...

<3 Heidi

P.S. 14 days til FLORIDA w/ LCpl Chapman! Lol.

Back To Life (Back To Reality)

So... I decided to write a random blog about how things are going in my life right now, for those of you who don't get to read my preferred list blogs.

First off, as far as school is going, I am having a fantastic year. I am doing really well in my classes and have high grades in ALL of them. It feels good to being doing well for once, and I don't even feel stressed out by school, really. I mean, sure... there is a little stressed to get readings and such done, but thats about it. I haven't been precrastinating things this semester, for spending hours upon end online. Lol. I love it. I especially ADORE my Jewish Scriptures class. Tehe.

Also, my job is still pretty much amazing, as well. I love it. I am picking up a lot of hours here lately because of homecoming (causing me to work 3 weekends in a row... *Sigh*). It sucks, but at the same time... it's more money. *Smiles*. Gotta love that...

Speaking of money, *ugh*. I have been waiting for MONTHS to get this stupid loan that I am applying for to come through, and I think I finally got somewhere with it. Lol. They are supposed to give me a decision on Monday! YEY! Lol. It's just frustrating, I suppose. Anyway, once it comes thought, I will be SO HAPPY! Lol. We are talking MAJOR financial relief. YEY!

As far as my friendships go, with it being the school year, I am starting to feel distant from my friends, yet again. *Sigh*. O well, its normal for me during the school year, I guess. I just... miss everyone. I miss seeing my A-Bear, Wifey (A-way), Pookie, and just... everyone!

Cory and I are doing well again. Lol. He finally was able to talk to me about me coming down there and such... im excited. *Smiles*. I can't wait. I miss him so much (as I am sure most of you know by now). Lol. Also, my mom finally told me that she will accept it, if I do marry him, in which, I truly do want to. I love Cory... and I don't see that changing anytime soon.

Just hearing his voice is enough to keep me smiling for DAYS!

Other than that, there isn't really a whole lot of stuff going on in my life. I have just been pretty with work, and school, and hall council. BTW, if I didn't tell you all, I made Hall Council Exec. Board again this year. I am the treasurer this year... YEY! Lol. I like it A LOT better. *Smiles*. I love living in Park Hall....

Kate and I decorated our door today for Halloween, lol, it was fun. I am not much into the holiday, but Kate is, and I love a decorated Door, so... we did it. I love it. *Smiles*.

BTW, Kate let me try on her wedding dress (she is using it as a FORMAL for Rainbow Girls), and we had WAY TOO much fun. Lol. I LOVE YOU KATE! Your an awesome roomie... *Mwah*
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Welp, thats about all that I have been up to, you all. I just wanted to update you all, and let you know how things were going.

O yea, and if you haven't seen "Good Luck Chuck", GO SEE IT! Kate and I have seen it 3 times now, and I love it. Lol. It's TOO DAMN FUNNY! Dane Cook is simply amazing... Hahaha... gotta love him.

Well, I love you all... and until next time....

<3 Heidi Marie